Just Dance!

I have “Just Dance” by Lady Gaga stuck in my head. It replays itself over and over in my head. I simply cannot get rid of it. Its presence in my head is not because I secretly love the song. And, I really do love that song. It is in my head because those were the instructions given to me last week at my abuela’s birthday party.
I thought, really, I just have to dance with my abuela. There are many things that I can do to help out during the party. I can wash dishes and keep the kitchen clean which is my favorite activity to do. I can serve drinks to the guests and practice my Spanish at the same time. I can pick up trash. There is a small group of kids outside and I wonder if they want another player in “Duck, Duck, Goose.” I can run fast in a small circle. I play well with others. I am skilled in so many things and different areas. However, I needed to dance and I did exactly that. I danced with her, my uncle Eddie, my aunt Mersa, and my cousins to every song that was playing.
Throughout the party, everyone took turns dancing with her. Each person was utilizing a different dance. Sometimes, it was the Cueca. Other times, it was the Morenada. Both are great Bolivian dances. As each person danced with her, her demeanor changed. She was laughing with her whole body and smiling from cheek to cheek. There was a sparkle in her eyes and an overwhelming sense of joy that was present in her. She was filled with happiness. This moment meant so much to her because she was surrounded by so many people that love her. What a wonderful birthday gift!

Hospitality

Within the Bolivian culture, I have been observing the virtue of hospitality that seems to be infectious here. It is present in the streets, homes, churches, and the people. All it means is sharing what you have. It is nothing more than that. If you have extra food, then invite family members to the house and eat. If you have extra toys, then give them to someone who does not have any. If you have extra clothes, then give them to someone who needs it more. If there is extra space in the pew at church, then you make room for the person who needs it. If you are lost and need to find a particular street or a bus, there are people who will readily give the information. It is absolutely amazing to see and live in this hospitality.
As I witness this hospitality, I think about what it truly means to love the stranger. To love the stranger is really to give all what you can offer. Here in Bolivia, it is the gift of time. My host grandmother invites me to watch “Walker, Texas Ranger” with her every Sunday night. She says “Walker” and I head to her room to watch it. During commercial breaks, I ask her questions just to make sure that I understand the plot line. It is my favorite hour during the weekend. The guard at the Maryknoll Institute listens to my Spanish as we talk for hours. There is always a range of topics which challenges me to use my Spanish vocabulary. He and I both enjoy each other’s company. In these simple actions, I appreciate the time that is being given to me. This is more precious to me than what money can buy.
The Bolivian people are living out the Gospel spirit of loving the stranger with their hospitality. So, what is the best way to love the stranger? It is to spend time with each other.

Fabian

I am sitting next to Fabian, one of the little boys in my house. He is playing a computer game while I am trying to think of something to write about. He is more successful than I am at this moment. However, I truly admire this little boy. It is not because of his amazing computer skills, it is more about the invitations that he gives me. He constantly wants me to play with him. Sometimes, I just watch as he invents new games. When we both have homework, he invites me to do my homework as he is doing his. This means that we can play sooner than later. He asks me which movie or television show I want to watch. He gives me toys so I can have a respite from my homework and other obligations. He helps me understand why his little brother does not want to play a game with me. He is patient with me as I speak Spanish to him. Most of all, he gives me a lot of moments to laugh about.
When I think about all of these invitations, I reflect on how he is in the beginning stages of becoming a missioner. He is only 6 years old, but I see this in him. He is generous with what he has. He is genuine in his actions. He asks hard questions that cause you to think about your actions. For example, he asked me why I don’t play with him more often. I replied that I have more homework and other things to do. He said something in Spanish that is still a bit foreign to me. He welcomes and accepts anyone into his life. I am just impressed with this little boy.
Through all of these actions, I mull over of what I can learn from him. He is an example of what I hope to be in my life. I want to share more of what I have. I want to welcome anyone into my life. I want to be more accepting of people that are different from me. I want to be more understanding of situations and circumstances that people are in. So, I need to take lessons from Fabian.

Typhoid Fever

Yes, it is true. I had typhoid fever. The doctor in my family confirmed it. This was probably the worst pain that I had ever felt in my life. At various times, I would be freezing cold and then I would be blistering hot. When I was hot, I was sweating through my clothes and using a fan in an attempt to cool me off. Aspirin could not break the fever. I had aching pains in every part of my body. These pains went deep into my bones. It hurt every time I would walk or getting dressed in the morning. I felt nauseous. I did not want to eat anything because the smell was horrible. I was dehydrated even though I was drinking water. It was impossible to think or do anything because I had no energy. I still have no idea how I received it.
I was and continue to be humbled by this moment. In my moment of sickness, I was completely out of my element. In the United States, I know how to treat my diseases and what type of support that I want. Here in Bolivia, I had absolutely no idea what to do. I did not know a doctor or even how to schedule an appointment. I did not know what type of medicine to take or how to obtain medicine. I did not know what type of food that would help, not harm my condition. I was completely helpless. The best thing that I could do was to tell my abuela. She would have the answers that I was seeking.
In sharing information about my health, I learned about community. My Bolivian family genuinely cared about my well-being. Everyone knew what I needed without me asking for it. The kids in my house did not ask me to play. My abuela asked me how often I went to the bathroom and listened during the night on how often I used the bathroom. She gave me cinnamon tea to help my stomach. She made bland food so I could at least eat something. She told the kids in my house to be quiet when I took 2-3 hour naps. She called the doctor in our family to diagnose me. He gave me some medicine which broke my fever. He then gave me a list of things that I need to get done at the lab. After I received my lab tests, my tia arranged for me to go to his hospital so he could explain the test results. I had no idea what my results meant. He then gave me a prescription for Cipro which would take away all of my symptoms. All of these acts demonstrate that in community, we need each other. We rely on each other. Community is based on mutual giving.

Wake Up Every Morning

I sometimes have to pinch myself to know that I am in Bolivia. I am no longer talking and dreaming about being a missioner in Bolivia. I am here. There are many signs that serve as reminders for living in Bolivia. I hear Spanish everywhere I go. It is in the grocery store, restaurants, buses, on the street, and in my new home. I am attending school instead of going to work. I have homework that is due the next day. I have a textbook so I can follow along with my teachers. I drink bottled water instead of drinking from the tap. My money is in Bolivianos rather than dollars. I have a voltage converter so I can use my laptop. There are dogs in the street, in the park, and on the sidewalk. Laundry is hung outside to dry. I hear 80’s music in every taxi that I ride in so I can get to my next destination. These are all the outward signs that I am living in Bolivia. I am in still in awe and amazement that I am here in Bolivia.
What captures my thoughts about Bolivia is how I wake up each morning. I hear the sound of a rooster which is my other alarm clock. It crows several times. I also hear the rain on the roof. It is the rainy season now. The rain has a distinct sound. It is hollow and loud. It also comes down fast and strong. After two hours, the rain is done. The evidence from the rain is the mud puddle outside. The light from the sun streams through my curtains even though I want to sleep more. I turn over so I can block the light with my body but it is not enough. I must wake up to start my day. I smell the beginnings of lunch. It always smells tasty with all the spices that my abuela uses. She lets the food simmer so all the spices are in a perfect arrangement with each other. This smell makes me excited for lunch and I can’t wait to come home after classes. I see the daily activities of my abuela in the morning. She makes my breakfast and sets it out for me to eat. She fills a pitcher of water to water all of the plants as long as it did not rain early in the morning. She has coffee and bread ready for a worker in the neighborhood. She takes food out to Whiskey, our ferocious and kind dog in the backyard. She puts the dishes away from last night’s dinner. If there are dishes to wash, she washes them. She offers little conversation which is a relief because my brain cannot form sentences in Spanish at 7:20 in the morning. I leave for school and she says something that I don’t quite understand yet. In my mind, it is “have a wonderful day at school.”
My walk to school is an amazing sight as well. In every direction, I see mountains. These mountains are lush and green, and extremely tall. I am inspired to go hiking and yet, I think I need to go to school. I can hike this weekend. I see people who are waiting for the bus or taxi trufi to take them where they need to go in the morning. I don’t know where they are going. I walk carefully to school. There is a high number of dogs that live in the street. Some of the dogs can be a wee bit mean and may have rabies. There are two ways of dealing with the dogs. One way is to pick up a rock which scares them. The other way is to let them walk past you. Both ways are helpful so as to avoid a potential bite. If you know someone that already has the rabies vaccine, then you can push them in front so they can be bitten first.
As I approach the entrance of the Maryknoll Institute, I see men washing cars. They take buckets with ropes attached to them and plunge them deep down into a canal. This canal consistently flows with water. I am not sure where the water comes from but it is a good business. There are always cars in the morning, afternoon, and evening. I walk a little bit closer and see women washing clothes. They are using the same water that the men are using. Then, they hang the clothes. Sometimes, the women chase after kids in between washings. I learned from the guards at the entrance that all of the men and women come from the southern zone. In the southern zone of the city, there is very little water. Since there is little water there, they must come to this area by the school. By the end of the day, they have packed up their things and go back to the southern zone. The routine starts the very next day.

Yoga in Spanish

Well, I had a little bit of an adventure last night. I, James, and MacKenzie, friends from school, decided to go to a Yoga class. We met at Maryknoll and took a taxi to the yoga studio. None of us knew exactly where the yoga studio was. We trusted that the taxi driver would know how to get there as long as we provided the address. This was a bad idea in retrospect. The taxi driver did not know the address either. We drove around for a while. He stopped twice to ask other taxi drivers about this yoga studio. One driver directed us to the general location of the studio. The second driver told us the exact location. Each time we stopped for directions, we all could hear a string of words coming from the mouth of our taxi driver. We all imagined them to be bad words and being directed toward us. When we arrived at the yoga studio, we tipped our driver at least 15 Bs in addition to the cost of the ride. 15 Bs is roughly 2 American dollars. It was guilt that made us tip more.
We entered into the yoga studio. The yoga studio is a house which is divided into several rooms. There is a different class in each room. This type of setup provided a peaceful and relaxing atmosphere. Tonight, our class was the only one in the studio. First, we needed to pay for the class and find out if there is room in the class. The class was the same amount of money as the tip that we gave to our taxi driver. Fortunately, there was enough room for the three of us. We walked through the wrong door to get to the yoga room. Our instructor politely told us to walk out and go into the side door. We had to remove our shoes, and grab mats, a block, and a blanket. The room was small and we all had to be extremely close to each other. I think there were about 15 people in the class. Our instructor said that the class was going to be in both English and Spanish because of us. We told our instructor that we all were learning Spanish so it would actually be beneficial for her to speak in Spanish. The majority of the class was in Spanish. She insisted to speak in English at various times so we could understand the positions.
This yoga class was a combination of Hatha flow and Yengar. Hatha flow yoga is focused on the fluidity of the movements. Through a repetition of moves, a person becomes familiar with each move and slowly builds up endurance to hold each position longer. I consider Hatha yoga as a great introduction to yoga. It is more for beginners. Yengar yoga is focused on holding each position for 2-3 minutes at a time. In holding each position, a person develops muscle and eventually able to hold the position for a longer length of time. Yengar yoga is definitely for more experienced persons.
The class started with Hatha as a way to warm up our bodies. Then, she began using Yengar. The class was little over an hour. She showed us positions that I have never done. One position was using the block and the wall as a prop. We walked four and half steps on our mat. We then placed our right hand on the block, lifted our left leg up and put our left leg on the wall. Our right leg remained on the mat. My hips still hurt this morning. The class was exhausting and wonderful. She invited us to come back to this class and try other classes at the studio.

Update Part 2

I spent my month of December saying good-bye to friends and family. One good-bye moment took place in St. Louis. Ah.. St. Louis is a city that I fell completely in love with. It is a city of “firsts.” I volunteered for a year after college through the Gateway Vincentian Volunteers. My volunteer placement site was Places for People. Places for People then became my first job. I got into first car accident and consequently, it was my first car that I took to the junk yard. I became part of the peace and justice movement. I even offered to go to jail for peace. I did not go to jail. However, I met so many people whose focus is creating a just world and will work for it. I became part of a parish that is loving and welcoming to anyone who enters through its doors. I met my friends that have been so crucial for me in getting to this point in my life. I became an adult.

My visit to St. Louis was filled with so much love. I experienced this love when I walked through the doors at Places for People. Every client had their arms open for a hug; their eyes lit up with excitement; their smiles became bigger and bigger. This was only the entrance. I still needed to make my way through the rest of the building. A dance was held in my honor. As I danced with my clients, I kept hearing, “Is she back for good? She lost weight. She looks happy. Did she meet her husband in DC?” I had my favorite lunch. It included lasagna, salad, and jello cake. My favorite part of this Places for People moment was seeing my best friend. She got off work early and came by to see me. We then talked endlessly to our friends at Places. She later took me to our favorite coffee shop and to dinner with our friends. This by far was the best welcome that I could ever receive. It is a moment that I will never forget.

This was only one of my many wonderful experiences in St. Louis. Each experience taught me that I will not be forgotten. Each friend has a story that has helped me get to this moment. Each client at Places for People can remember something about me whether it was my favorite food or riding my bike to work even in the coldest weather. There are so many stories about me that it is impossible to forget me. This is a good feeling to have as I prepare to go to mission. I know that I have a huge community in St. Louis. This huge community is supporting me in wanting me to be the best person that I can be. It is such an amazing moment to have in my memory. I am a lucky girl to be loved by so many people.